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Teaching is a profession that demands patience, love and courage. I just love my bubbly kids.

Saturday, September 24, 2016

24th of Sept

In the Name of Allah,The Most Merciful and Most Compassionate

A year older and hopefully a year wiser.

As i have so many flaws,
but you don't care,
you take them all.

We were in love,
and that's what we wished
ever since a long time ago.

And that's that.
hope it lasts,
and never dies.

Monday, August 1, 2016


In the Name of Allah,The Most Merciful and Most Compassionate

Final year. Am breathing and relaxing. Others are getting married. ME? Getting excited over the new Harry Potter series. HA HA. 

23rd, single and happy. I pray that I have a good life, a strong heart, beautiful family and nice friends.

Alhamdulillah, thumma alhamdulillah. Allah fulfilled my wishes. Dreams come true. And human never really appreciate what they've got ey?

Relax. And be thankful. Relax and be grateful. 

There's one uncle of different grandparents once asked me about marriage. And i just smiled, (I was eating btw), with the intention to avoid the subject. Happen to be, I was at an engagement ceremony of my distant relative who's younger than me, maybe 1 or 2 years. I've no intention of telling him my future plan, no intention of telling everyone my private life, and no intention to hurt him. While i was swallowing my food, this ugly uncle said, "Hang tak laku dah ni.. (You're off market)". Gulp. This is serious man. Oh man. My anger conquered me and it feels like Voldemort casting the HAHVADAHKADAVRAHHH curse. Now I know how you feel dear Voldy...

So, since he said that, it's okay lah kan to curse him defend myself kan.. But i..i ya..speechless. I said nothing. He continued blabbing nonsense things and repeating the taboo words. "Tak laku". And the drama began.

I went home and started crying. HAHA. I should not! Sheesh.
It hurts like mad. Honestly. Deep down, I'm still a girl. You have no right to say that to me. Laku or not, it has nothing to do with you. I'm just 23rd. LOL. So fresh and young, energetic and tough too.

Ladies and gentlemen,

I'm 23rd and studying (study+dying), and happy. I went for volunteering, I was featured in some newspapers, been to oversea for community project, did some innovations and currently am teaching the blinds.

I work. I study, so that I can get a brighter future. And I make an effort for a brighter future. I mention 'a brighter future' twice. Should i mention it again? YEAH, for my brighter future, not yours. AND, nobody will ever pay attention to that (except your family and dear ones of course). Not everyone will be happy over your success. 

"You're a girl. Get married. The earlier the better. No matter how successful you are, you'll stay in the kitchen cooking for your husband." Says the man who never know how hard it is to get a degree. 


This is a life lesson for me btw. No matter how hard you struggle for your study, you'll earn so little appreciation (Well, I don't hope for appreciation pun). Set your priorities right, plan your future, and you're good to go.

Some were blessed with early marriage, 
some were blessed with good results, 
some were blessed with cute babies, 
some were blessed with a happy family. 

Little did we know, the one that married early was once tested with a deep cut of a broken relationship in his past, 
little did we know, the one who has good results was diagnosed with cancer, 
little did we know the one who has cute babies still suffered from a Cesarean section of giving birth
little did we know, the one who has a happy family, actually has nothing on this earth, she only treasures her family! 

Let's stop comparing your life with others. You never knew the ugly skeleton hantu hiding in their closets. And you never knew the pain and the price of the struggles. Really.

Tantantut the cat.

"Don't disturb my lady, or else, I'll just gigit yo fingers uncle!", said Tantan with a fierce look.
(Sleepy look actually)

Monday, July 11, 2016


The girl is loved,
by the most darling couple.

She is loved,
despite of the trouble she caused.

She is loved,
by the most charming parents.

The pair raised her,
like she's a gift from heaven.

The girl should love them,
just how she's gotten love from them.

The girl should know by then,
her tears aren't worth for anyone else.

The girl will be loved,
by the one who's worth of it,

Obviously she's too elegant,
to be handled by the wrong person.

Thursday, June 9, 2016

hanya namamu

Di lafaz pertama suara azan fajar Langkah kananku seperti dilindung Andainya tersandung rebahku bersujud Dan hanya namaMu ku puji ku sanjung Adakalanya linang air mata Tertumpah ke pipi menerima takdir Namun imanku tidak akan runtuh Ku ambil ikhtiar berdiri semula Dan hanya namaMu ku puji ku sanjung Di akhir perjalanan ini Yang mencari petunjukMu Ku doa agar kehadiran disambut Semoga namaku terdiri Di antara yang terpilih Menjadi tetamu di tamanMu nanti Setiap masa tak pernah ku lupa Sinar yang Kau beri dalam hidup ini Bila tibanya nyawaku di dunia Kau panggil kembali dengan nafas akhir Hanyalah namaMu ku puji ku sanjung Di akhir perjalanan ini Yang mencari petunjukMu Ku doa agar kehadiran disambut Semoga namaku terdiri Di antara yang terpilih Menjadi tetamu di tamanMu nanti Menjadi tetamu di tamanMu nanti

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